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FALL EMRYS PATTERSON
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good afternoon! thanks for agreeing to this interview, the answer won't be shared outside of those participating in this study. so introduce yourself, tell me the basics!
"well okay, i guess i can. anything for a hundred bucks, right? i'm fall emrys patterson, the only son of the patterson family. i'm twenty four years old and was born on the twelfth of february at about four fifty-six am (i like to joke that's why i'm a morning person...i started early!) after one of my older sisters passed, we moved here. to new york/"
fall huh? that's an unusual name, can you explain it?
"yeah i get that a lot. well my parents have a thing for seasons - my eldest sister is summer, my late other sister was named spring and my baby sister is named winter. i was originally supposed to be autumn by my parents who assumed they were just going to have another girl but i came out and they found otherwise. unfortunately they only had girls clothes and stuff so in baby pictures i'm dressed in an awful lot of pink. there's one picture of me in a dress that i'm planning to destroy before anyone else gets to see it.
also, for someone who seems to be so nosy about names, it's interesting you didn't find 'emrys' odd. it's the last name of merlin in welsh, by the way."
so how's your love life? any past secrets in your closet?
"ha, closet jokes because i'm gay, right? i've always known i was gay - it wasn't a big realization after puberty or after a failed relationship with a woman. i just always wanted to marry a boy. in the play-weddings in kindergarten i made another boy be the other groom with me instead of letting ginny reynolds become my wife.
i had my first real boyfriend when i was sixteen. his name was jacob and he was an eighteen year old with an awesome motorcycle and tattoos. he was a bad boy and i really enjoyed that little bit of rebellion from my parents. unfortunately, when i refused to put out after a few dates he drugged and raped me. i don't like to talk about it much and nobody in my family knows what happened as i checked out of the hospital ama and didn't press charges. i looked him up though and jacob's in prison for robbery now.
i haven't had any real relationships since then. i joke with my sister that it's because i'm bad with guys but in reality it's because i'm still a bit nervous about a possible repeat of the jacob situation.
well okay, i haven't had any real relationships until i met (i will put an ad up for this guy, so for temporary purposes he'll be called 'draco') draco at school in a history class back when i was twenty-two. initially i tried to stay away from him but draco was persistent in his desire to be with me for some reason. we were friends first, he broke through my barriers and we finally went on our first date a few weeks before my twenty-third birthday."
wow, that's tough! speaking of tough - what was the hardest moment of your life?
"i'm sure you're going to expect me to talk about the rape here and yes, that was a very hard moment of my life. i was violated and my trust shattered. however the hardest moment of my life was when one of my older sisters, spring, died. it was sudden and unexpected and has pretty much shattered my family.
it was only two years ago. i don't know the details on to how it happened but i know that summer was driving and spring was in the passenger seat and they hit a tree. it was instant from what i've been told. it really tore our family apart - our parents are more withdrawn. they don't like to think they are but in reality they have been more reserved since spring died. summer disappeared, she ran off sometime after the accident and we have no idea where. i think she blames herself even though it wasn't her fault.
for me, losing spring was hard. i'm closest to winter because we're closer in age, sure, but spring was the closest older sibling to me and was important to me. we made sure to call each other at least twice a week if we weren't living in the same place. nobody expects to lose a sibling especially so young, she had such a life ahead of her and it was just ripped away. i ended up crying repeatedly during my classes at random points in the year after she died. even now, i'm trying to heal but i miss her every day."
so you've mentioned them repeatedly - tell me about your siblings.
"as i said, i'm the only boy out of us. my eldest sister is summer and she ran off to somewhere soon after spring's funeral. we weren't as close as i was with my other siblings because she was the oldest but i do miss her. she was the one to look up to for advice and she was the second person that i told that i was gay.
spring is my sister, even if she has passed. i miss her every day. she was lively and the real impersonation of her season. it's hard to talk about her while knowing i'll never be able to hear her voice again.
finally, my last sister and the baby of the patterson family, winter. she's my irish twin (there is eleven months between us) and we've always been close. growing up we were always the two amigos, she's my partner in crime. even now we're really close and she's my rock. i know if she ever finds out about jacob and the rape she'll break into prison and try to kill him for me, which is one of the reasons i can't tell her."
so fall, what do you do for a living?
"i'm a zooarchaeologist at the local zoo. basically what i do is study the bones of animals and try to make connections to the modern world and identify new species of animals previously unknown. basically i'm the step behind the palentologists - i study the animals that were around after the dinosaurs but could very well be long extinct now. it's a super interesting field!"
that's an interesting career! how'd you get into that?
"i went into school to get a biology degree or something but then i started taking history courses too. the problem was i loved them both, so i discussed some possibilities with a professor and things i could do. still, zoology just fell in my lap - i got an opportunity to work with a zooarchaeologist as his assistant and never went back. i'm working on my masters as i work beside the very same man i once was an assistant too so that's pretty neat!
my end goal is to basically take his job - head zooarchaeologist at the museum and he's fine with that dream as i'll need my phd before anything of that sort happens. so there's still quite a few years before i get there."
what are you afraid of?
"geez, suddenly jumping to even deeper questions, eh? then again, i've already confessed the rape so i suppose it can't get any more personal than that. actually, my biggest fear has to do with that. i'm terrified that someday i might get raped again. it was why it took me so long to actually agree to go out with draco. i didn't want to get hurt like i did with my first boyfriend. the idea of opening myself up to that sort of vulnerability still frightens me but draco is fairly good at reassuring me (or telling me to 'buck up' because he knows sometimes that's what i want to hear.)
on a lighter note, i have a couple of other things that i fear that aren't as depressing. for instance, i've got an irrational fear of wasps. not bees, those are cool and make honey and all that but wasps are like their asshole cousin that never does anything with their life. i'm also not a fan of moths. not as hatred as wasps but a close second because they ran into my face once when i was outside and it was disgusting."
okay, let's keep this fun thing going; what's the stupidest thing that you did as a kid?
"am i ever glad that this stuff isn't going to go out of this room! seriously, don't let my sisters or my parents ever find out about this as i'll never live it down.
okay so when i was little, like six, i really liked superheros right? so i wanted to be one. i decided that i could totally become one if i tied a blanket around my neck and jumping from a high branch. well i was pretty safety-conscience too so i figured just in case my powers didn't include flight i was going to give myself a way to avoid hitting the ground.
long story short, i decided to tie a rope around my belt and then tie it to the top branch that i was climbing too. it wasn't too high because i was sort of afraid of heights. so i climbed up, tied the rope to the tree branch and fell. unfortunately, my belt didn't fit very well so i ended up hanging upside down with my pants around my ankles as i tried to hold on to them with my feet.
in the end, i fell from the tree very luckily not landing on my head and ran home with my pants still hanging from the tree in the forest near our house. nobody saw me get home and change so luckily nobody knows.
i sort of wonder what happened to that pair of pants...i never went back so i wonder if they're still hanging there."
well we're running short on questions so naturally i need to ask some of the odder ones - how do you sleep?
"yeah that's not a stalker-like question at all. actually, stalkers would know that i suppose this is an anti-stalker question. so i'll shut up about that stalker thing, okay? you're being pretty vague with this question so i guess i'll just describe my sleeping habits.
anyways i don't really have a set sleeping position. like i'll fall asleep on my side or my back most of the time but i'll somehow go all starfish and wake up sprawled all over my bed. i can seriously fall asleep curled in a tiny little ball and i wake up and blam! it's like i deliberately stretched out on the bed. the only time i don't starfish is when someone is spooning with me which totally didn't happen before when i had draco over and we fell asleep on the bed watching netflix.
never happened.
when it comes to actually falling asleep i'm pretty good at it. if i get comfortable, which usually involves a fan blowing on me but not on my face or else it irritates me too much and the blankets half on so my top have can snuggle and my bottom half can be free, then i can fall asleep pretty quick. even if i'm stressed out i can fall asleep before you can say 'nap time'."
okay, simpler question - what is your dominant hand?
"actually it isn't that simple! i'm ambidextrous which means i don't really have a dominant hand. during school children are often taught to just choose one as it is simpler if they designate one to be a dominant hand. so for the most part i have a tendency to use my right side as my dominant side.
that being said i kept up on my practice so that i can write equally as well with my left hand. i figured it an advantage to be able to use both hands if i'm writing notes while in the middle of a study or something. it's a pretty fun and mostly useless talent."
what's your favorite movie genre?
"hmm, that's a tough one! i'm pretty chill about whatever genre i'm watching so i don't typically argue with anybody over what movie should be watched. i really like horror movies, not gore though - the jump scares are my favorite. if a movie can startle me than i know that it's good! i've got a secret love of romantic movies, like the corny sandra bullock ones. they're a guilty pleasure, they suck so much but at the same time they're just so good. "
so we're just about done. here's the last question that i need - what is you dream for the future?
"oh you couldn't just stick with just the easy questions anymore, eh? okay fine. well i'll start with speaking about my career dreams. as mentioned before, i'd like to get my phd and eventually get the job that my current mentor works when he retires. in addition, i'd like to go to some archaeological sites to study on-scene some of these animals whose bones i'm merely seeing in a lab. the affects of climate without having the transfer from the natural resting place has to be pretty incredible. sorry, nerded-out there.
in personal dreams, i want my sisters to be happy. in addition, i want to see summer again. it's been hard since she disappeared and i know that the entire family would be relieved to just know that she was okay and safe. i want winter to have a future with the person she wants a future with and to excel in whatever she wants to do. she's one of my best friends and i want her to do well!
finally when it comes to my own dreams, that's when it gets more complicated. i want to rise about the rape, to become less jumpy if draco wants to rest his hand on my leg or hold me close. it hurts me to flinch away if i don't notice him reaching to touch me. he's a nice guy and deserves me to be less jumpy. i want a future with him, we can someday adopt a few children, live in a house together and be happy. that's all i want and hopefully someday that's what's going to happen."
good afternoon! thanks for agreeing to this interview, the answer won't be shared outside of those participating in this study. so introduce yourself, tell me the basics!
"well okay, i guess i can. anything for a hundred bucks, right? i'm fall emrys patterson, the only son of the patterson family. i'm twenty four years old and was born on the twelfth of february at about four fifty-six am (i like to joke that's why i'm a morning person...i started early!) after one of my older sisters passed, we moved here. to new york/"
fall huh? that's an unusual name, can you explain it?
"yeah i get that a lot. well my parents have a thing for seasons - my eldest sister is summer, my late other sister was named spring and my baby sister is named winter. i was originally supposed to be autumn by my parents who assumed they were just going to have another girl but i came out and they found otherwise. unfortunately they only had girls clothes and stuff so in baby pictures i'm dressed in an awful lot of pink. there's one picture of me in a dress that i'm planning to destroy before anyone else gets to see it.
also, for someone who seems to be so nosy about names, it's interesting you didn't find 'emrys' odd. it's the last name of merlin in welsh, by the way."
so how's your love life? any past secrets in your closet?
"ha, closet jokes because i'm gay, right? i've always known i was gay - it wasn't a big realization after puberty or after a failed relationship with a woman. i just always wanted to marry a boy. in the play-weddings in kindergarten i made another boy be the other groom with me instead of letting ginny reynolds become my wife.
i had my first real boyfriend when i was sixteen. his name was jacob and he was an eighteen year old with an awesome motorcycle and tattoos. he was a bad boy and i really enjoyed that little bit of rebellion from my parents. unfortunately, when i refused to put out after a few dates he drugged and raped me. i don't like to talk about it much and nobody in my family knows what happened as i checked out of the hospital ama and didn't press charges. i looked him up though and jacob's in prison for robbery now.
i haven't had any real relationships since then. i joke with my sister that it's because i'm bad with guys but in reality it's because i'm still a bit nervous about a possible repeat of the jacob situation.
well okay, i haven't had any real relationships until i met (i will put an ad up for this guy, so for temporary purposes he'll be called 'draco') draco at school in a history class back when i was twenty-two. initially i tried to stay away from him but draco was persistent in his desire to be with me for some reason. we were friends first, he broke through my barriers and we finally went on our first date a few weeks before my twenty-third birthday."
wow, that's tough! speaking of tough - what was the hardest moment of your life?
"i'm sure you're going to expect me to talk about the rape here and yes, that was a very hard moment of my life. i was violated and my trust shattered. however the hardest moment of my life was when one of my older sisters, spring, died. it was sudden and unexpected and has pretty much shattered my family.
it was only two years ago. i don't know the details on to how it happened but i know that summer was driving and spring was in the passenger seat and they hit a tree. it was instant from what i've been told. it really tore our family apart - our parents are more withdrawn. they don't like to think they are but in reality they have been more reserved since spring died. summer disappeared, she ran off sometime after the accident and we have no idea where. i think she blames herself even though it wasn't her fault.
for me, losing spring was hard. i'm closest to winter because we're closer in age, sure, but spring was the closest older sibling to me and was important to me. we made sure to call each other at least twice a week if we weren't living in the same place. nobody expects to lose a sibling especially so young, she had such a life ahead of her and it was just ripped away. i ended up crying repeatedly during my classes at random points in the year after she died. even now, i'm trying to heal but i miss her every day."
so you've mentioned them repeatedly - tell me about your siblings.
"as i said, i'm the only boy out of us. my eldest sister is summer and she ran off to somewhere soon after spring's funeral. we weren't as close as i was with my other siblings because she was the oldest but i do miss her. she was the one to look up to for advice and she was the second person that i told that i was gay.
spring is my sister, even if she has passed. i miss her every day. she was lively and the real impersonation of her season. it's hard to talk about her while knowing i'll never be able to hear her voice again.
finally, my last sister and the baby of the patterson family, winter. she's my irish twin (there is eleven months between us) and we've always been close. growing up we were always the two amigos, she's my partner in crime. even now we're really close and she's my rock. i know if she ever finds out about jacob and the rape she'll break into prison and try to kill him for me, which is one of the reasons i can't tell her."
so fall, what do you do for a living?
"i'm a zooarchaeologist at the local zoo. basically what i do is study the bones of animals and try to make connections to the modern world and identify new species of animals previously unknown. basically i'm the step behind the palentologists - i study the animals that were around after the dinosaurs but could very well be long extinct now. it's a super interesting field!"
that's an interesting career! how'd you get into that?
"i went into school to get a biology degree or something but then i started taking history courses too. the problem was i loved them both, so i discussed some possibilities with a professor and things i could do. still, zoology just fell in my lap - i got an opportunity to work with a zooarchaeologist as his assistant and never went back. i'm working on my masters as i work beside the very same man i once was an assistant too so that's pretty neat!
my end goal is to basically take his job - head zooarchaeologist at the museum and he's fine with that dream as i'll need my phd before anything of that sort happens. so there's still quite a few years before i get there."
what are you afraid of?
"geez, suddenly jumping to even deeper questions, eh? then again, i've already confessed the rape so i suppose it can't get any more personal than that. actually, my biggest fear has to do with that. i'm terrified that someday i might get raped again. it was why it took me so long to actually agree to go out with draco. i didn't want to get hurt like i did with my first boyfriend. the idea of opening myself up to that sort of vulnerability still frightens me but draco is fairly good at reassuring me (or telling me to 'buck up' because he knows sometimes that's what i want to hear.)
on a lighter note, i have a couple of other things that i fear that aren't as depressing. for instance, i've got an irrational fear of wasps. not bees, those are cool and make honey and all that but wasps are like their asshole cousin that never does anything with their life. i'm also not a fan of moths. not as hatred as wasps but a close second because they ran into my face once when i was outside and it was disgusting."
okay, let's keep this fun thing going; what's the stupidest thing that you did as a kid?
"am i ever glad that this stuff isn't going to go out of this room! seriously, don't let my sisters or my parents ever find out about this as i'll never live it down.
okay so when i was little, like six, i really liked superheros right? so i wanted to be one. i decided that i could totally become one if i tied a blanket around my neck and jumping from a high branch. well i was pretty safety-conscience too so i figured just in case my powers didn't include flight i was going to give myself a way to avoid hitting the ground.
long story short, i decided to tie a rope around my belt and then tie it to the top branch that i was climbing too. it wasn't too high because i was sort of afraid of heights. so i climbed up, tied the rope to the tree branch and fell. unfortunately, my belt didn't fit very well so i ended up hanging upside down with my pants around my ankles as i tried to hold on to them with my feet.
in the end, i fell from the tree very luckily not landing on my head and ran home with my pants still hanging from the tree in the forest near our house. nobody saw me get home and change so luckily nobody knows.
i sort of wonder what happened to that pair of pants...i never went back so i wonder if they're still hanging there."
well we're running short on questions so naturally i need to ask some of the odder ones - how do you sleep?
"yeah that's not a stalker-like question at all. actually, stalkers would know that i suppose this is an anti-stalker question. so i'll shut up about that stalker thing, okay? you're being pretty vague with this question so i guess i'll just describe my sleeping habits.
anyways i don't really have a set sleeping position. like i'll fall asleep on my side or my back most of the time but i'll somehow go all starfish and wake up sprawled all over my bed. i can seriously fall asleep curled in a tiny little ball and i wake up and blam! it's like i deliberately stretched out on the bed. the only time i don't starfish is when someone is spooning with me which totally didn't happen before when i had draco over and we fell asleep on the bed watching netflix.
never happened.
when it comes to actually falling asleep i'm pretty good at it. if i get comfortable, which usually involves a fan blowing on me but not on my face or else it irritates me too much and the blankets half on so my top have can snuggle and my bottom half can be free, then i can fall asleep pretty quick. even if i'm stressed out i can fall asleep before you can say 'nap time'."
okay, simpler question - what is your dominant hand?
"actually it isn't that simple! i'm ambidextrous which means i don't really have a dominant hand. during school children are often taught to just choose one as it is simpler if they designate one to be a dominant hand. so for the most part i have a tendency to use my right side as my dominant side.
that being said i kept up on my practice so that i can write equally as well with my left hand. i figured it an advantage to be able to use both hands if i'm writing notes while in the middle of a study or something. it's a pretty fun and mostly useless talent."
what's your favorite movie genre?
"hmm, that's a tough one! i'm pretty chill about whatever genre i'm watching so i don't typically argue with anybody over what movie should be watched. i really like horror movies, not gore though - the jump scares are my favorite. if a movie can startle me than i know that it's good! i've got a secret love of romantic movies, like the corny sandra bullock ones. they're a guilty pleasure, they suck so much but at the same time they're just so good. "
so we're just about done. here's the last question that i need - what is you dream for the future?
"oh you couldn't just stick with just the easy questions anymore, eh? okay fine. well i'll start with speaking about my career dreams. as mentioned before, i'd like to get my phd and eventually get the job that my current mentor works when he retires. in addition, i'd like to go to some archaeological sites to study on-scene some of these animals whose bones i'm merely seeing in a lab. the affects of climate without having the transfer from the natural resting place has to be pretty incredible. sorry, nerded-out there.
in personal dreams, i want my sisters to be happy. in addition, i want to see summer again. it's been hard since she disappeared and i know that the entire family would be relieved to just know that she was okay and safe. i want winter to have a future with the person she wants a future with and to excel in whatever she wants to do. she's one of my best friends and i want her to do well!
finally when it comes to my own dreams, that's when it gets more complicated. i want to rise about the rape, to become less jumpy if draco wants to rest his hand on my leg or hold me close. it hurts me to flinch away if i don't notice him reaching to touch me. he's a nice guy and deserves me to be less jumpy. i want a future with him, we can someday adopt a few children, live in a house together and be happy. that's all i want and hopefully someday that's what's going to happen."
DANIEL RADCLIFFE - RESIDENT - WRITTEN BY CACE
